So I had a meltdown as at Christmas event on Sunday. I don’t know what really went on I don’t remember much of it. One min I’m having a great time the next I’m in tears and feeling all alone. I can’t face seeing the people I was with that day (other than OH) or going to that pub for a long time. In fact, I don’t even want to leave the house. I called in sick for my placement yesterday and cancel my bank shift for today. Now I need to make up those hours and that pay.
Speaking of pay, I have no idea how I am going to pay the bills in January or the CCJ if I get one. One thing going my way (I think) is that I might be able to push the ccj back to January by saying I can’t do the mediation on 12th December. I can’t see I’d get a court date for December. Also, Moriarty never show up to court so it goes against them.
I’m feeling very down at the moment, not saying much at all and looking distant.
One good piece of news. I got my final uni marks yesterday and I got 88% on one of the components!!! I’ve never had anything like that before. Due to having 2 very poor marks, my overall grade will be sitting on the border of 2:2/2:1 but I’m happy with that. On;y the OSCE to come back but no-one ever fails that.
So how are my grades looking so far? Not good actually. The group presentation came back as 52 and all but one person in our group thought that was a crap grade. My acute care grade came back as 40!! That same person above went and failed! I’m barely going to get a 2:2 this year at this rate.
I’ve worked out I need 65+ on all assignments in 3rd year for even a 2:2.
Is anyone else struggling with university or has anyone struggled
Engaging Service Improvement poster presentation: 16th October 2019 Engaging Service Improvement essay: 21st October 2019 Evidence Based Practice project plan: 4th November 2019 Evidence Based Practice lit review: 4th November 2019 Evidence Based Practice exam: 7th November 2019 Long Term Conditions exam: 14th November 2019 Drugs exam: 14th November 2019
I am not even thinking about exams till, after 21st October, I honestly feel I will be ok with them, it is my assignment due in on 21st that is currently killing me! At first I thought the assignment was easy but now I’m struggling to understand it. I have finally gotten an appointment with learning support as I struggle with evaluate/analyse etc , Been trying to see them for ages but nothing, have to email them direct, then they compain about the time before the deadline. Doesn’t seem right as some in my cohort appear to get appointments whenever they want and see them for EVERYTHING!!
I’ve had two essay results back so far both pretty poor marks 49 + 55. I need to really improve with the rest of the year. If I can get a decent poster/presentation mark then I should pass the module as I feel my assignment mark will be a fail.
Trying to find out if 2nd year is worth 50% or only 30%. I do hope it’s 30%
My time is now up in A&E. I feel I have learnt so much during this placement, the learning experiences, the staff, the patients were all great.
I did have some issues though. I am at the start of my 2nd year but some staff appeared to think that I was a 3rd year student and therefore expected more from me. This became apparent the week my mentor was off. They were asking me thinks that we hadn’t covered in uni yet, things that they expect all nurses to know in A&E. Well I’m not going to work there once qualified that’s for sure.
There was only 2 nurses like this thankfully. They would stand right behind me when I was doing assessments, this would put me right off and I started to feel like I actually knew nothing about anything. Because of this my shifts were changed the week my mentor returned. Those that I worked with had no issue with me, I was given my own patients and would only go to them if I needed something. Even the practice development nurse I worked with once thought I was doing a great job for a 2nd year. Thankfully after that week I went back to working with my mentor and I felt much more comfortable.
I am exceptionally happy for my time in A&E. I do feel that every student nurse should have a placement, even a short one, in A&E. Now I just need to get an ITU placement
On 9th December 2018, I completed my first year of university and all I have left is an OSCE resit in January. I have 8 weeks off before I return for second year (if I return).
My first assessed placement didn’t end too badly, I ended up having to go in the day after I finished to get my paperwork signed of, I was just glad to be finished with the place.
My second assessed placement was much better, the mentor I spent most of my time with was utter crap but my other mentor and everyone else were great. The placement provided me with lots of learning experiences and I’m really happy with how my year ended.
I feel I have developed over the year, I just have to wait for results the board meets this week!
From now on I am working as much as possible before I return, I am only on a bank flexi contract now so I can fit work around placements much easier.
This first year was easy compared to what lies ahead.